Doctor Auntie Vibewire

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I am, inevitably, diseased.

The problem, y'see is, like, I'm a delicate flower, y'know?

I am, apparently, made more for sitting around than for functionality. But I just suck at sitting around. In January, I worked for 2 hours altogether (and tried desperately to get more). Then things changed rapidly. Now my paid work is at 19 hours a week (not counting breaks - what breaks? - and not counting transport time between clients). On the basis of that considerable rise in pay, I moved house two weeks ago. I also write, as always, for 20 hours a week. So writing plus regular work makes 39 hours a week (not counting transport, and without actual breaks).

My body has basically said, "Oh no you don't."

I more or less agree: I really should slow down. But I just can't. I look at what I'm spending my stress on, and the smart part of me says: it's important to keep the boyfriend happy, keep the friends content, do excellent work for every client...what's left?

Writing. So I tell myself, "Okay, let's take a break from the writing for a bit, shall we?" Then I get something like a snarl in response. It JUST DOESN'T WORK. My urge to write is oddly out of my control.

So here I am, spelling out what's in my head, so that hopefully the loop of logic (me to the aether and therefore back again) will make me stop.

Oh, and I've developed a phobia of avocados. Which is a lot more upsetting than it sounds.

Hmm. New plan: I borrow $100 tomorrow (assuming that my three currently-overdue employees don't come through with the correct moolah by then) and waste it on mad frivolities like a cover for my peeling car dashboard (the car's a work car now), credit for my phone, and a solid meal. And maybe chocolate. (My diet I CAN give up without violating my moral code. It'll come back and bite me later, but I've been doing so well I know I can handle it.) Definitely a mixed berry smoothie at Black Pepper cafe Belconnen (which incidentally is the best cafe I've ever been to. Equal with 'The Chocolate Fish' in New Zealand - everything they do is done with excellence and with heart.) Maybe I'll go crazy and have a banana smoothie AS WELL.

Just for tomorrow, I do no writing. None. But I do watch 'Mythbusters' (which counts as an hour of research...every job has its loopholes, and I'm my own boss). Which then leaves me with only 2 hours to do on Sunday.

I already have a date with Timothy planned, including dinner at my house and then a movie. I'll give him the choice of bringing dinner with him, or being the cook (I can direct, but actual grating and stirring sounds too difficult. Plus it's always fun to watch Tim cook for me.) And I'll let him buy me delicious candy at the movie.

I guess, in summary, I'll have a delicious, wasteful, unwise, selfish day. The world can probably handle its own friggin problems for twenty-four hours.

This may actually work.

Fel

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